so much to do
so much to see
so much things, i want to be in the backseat.



i will stop murmuring
i will start studying
i will start exercising more
i will spend more time with god


got a reality check with god yest.

how i love aunty ivy's msges.im glad she finally talked about all the words we can say and we can't. im so not perfect. and i need to say sorry to rachel for being so mean to her. n i have to make an effort to be nicer to her.and i still miss my brother.
wonder if his exams have started.
i feel up to my neck with business.
haha, christian girls are the untouchables. aunty ivy s so funny.
but oh god, u are really so so wonderful.


O Lord you have searched me and you know me...
...too lofty for me to attain...Psalm 139


this verse has been in my head the whole week.
i can never fathom the depth of your love, how you can see everyhting i do, and still love me the same.
you bore all my whips, my pain, my suffering,
you bore hell for me
even though u knew i would disappoint u, let u down, and make u cry.
what a wretch i am.
you've given me your best,
how can i not give you mine?
help me to really surrender all gladly to you.
let it a constant heartcry, to please you,
and love you above all.
for you placed me above everything else.
bring tears to my eyes.


when i survey
the wondrous cross
on which the King of glory died
my richest gain
i count but loss
and pour contempt on all my pride

see from his head,
his hands, his feet
sorrow and love
flow mingled down
did e'er such love and sorrow meet
or thorns compose
so rich a crown

forbid it Lord
that i should boast
save in the death of Christ my lord
love so amazing, so divine
demands my soul, my life, my all


we have to face the ugly truth.
and face it bravely. its no point running away, or pushing the thought away in the subconcious mind.
let us delay no longer
in giving our all to the god who gave us His all.


let the world see Jesus Christ in me

9:50 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

FORTY MORE DAYS TO LOVE ODYSSEY!!!
EVERYONE READING THIS MUST COME!
22ND dec.730PM. BETHESDA BEDOK-TAMPINBES CHURCH.BEDOK NORTH AVE 3.
TAKE BUS 67,28,66,69,168,228,222,14,508 FROM EITHER BEDOK MRT OR INTERCHANGE.



one year is almost gone gone gone.
gone like yesterday is
gone like salad cream is
gone like all my dreams are
gone.



yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
dont close your eyes
dont close your eyes
this is your life,
are you who you wanna be?
this is your life,
is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger,
and you had everything to lose?


oh oh oh.
sweet childhood memories.
of singing sunday school songs.
all the innocence we had and the fun we had doing those actions
even though we looked funny or silly.
giggles. but it all brought a smile to your face, didn't it?



with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
smile at the storm
smile at the storm
with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
as we go sailing home.



home is where the heart is.
home is where you are.
so sweet. aunty mabel and uncle francis renewed their marriage vows aftr 25 yrs. and yea, its a long time.
cant believe she actually got married at 21!! mum would get a fit. and they went for a honeymoon and when aunty mabel came back, she sat for her final papers. how cool is that? oh the wonderful thing about romance. when its the one that God has chosen for you.
haha. getting all romancy now. grins.
dream dream dream.
ive given my heart to jesus.
oh lord keep it keep it keep it.
i want everything to be surrendered wholly to you.
and let me captured by your beauty.
and oh lord,
you see everything i do, say and think.
and you still love me!
it's unbelievable.


when i see the beauty
of a sunset's glory
amazing artistry across the evening sky
when i feel the nystery
of a distant galaxy
it awes and humbles me
to be loved
by a God so high
what can i do
but thank you?
what can i do but give my life to you
hallelujah hallelujah
what can i do
but praise you
everyday make everything i do
a Hallelujah
a Hallelujah
Hallulujah


let the world see Jesus Christ in me
the love; sweet wonderful love of Christ in me.
please

8:32 AM

FORTY MORE DAYS TO LOVE ODYSSEY!!!
EVERYONE READING THIS MUST COME!
22ND dec.730PM. BETHESDA BEDOK-TAMPINBES CHURCH.BEDOK NORTH AVE 3.
TAKE BUS 67,28,66,69,168,228,222,14,508 FROM EITHER BEDOK MRT OR INTERCHANGE.



one year is almost gone gone gone.
gone like yesterday is
gone like salad cream is
gone like all my dreams are
gone.



yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
dont close your eyes
dont close your eyes
this is your life,
are you who you wanna be?
this is your life,
is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger,
and you had everything to lose?


oh oh oh.
sweet childhood memories.
of singing sunday school songs.
all the innocence we had and the fun we had doing those actions
even though we looked funny or silly.
giggles. but it all brought a smile to your face, didn't it?



with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
smile at the storm
smile at the storm
with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
as we go sailing home.



home is where the heart is.
home is where you are.
so sweet. aunty mabel and uncle francis renewed their marriage vows aftr 25 yrs. and yea, its a long time.
cant believe she actually got married at 21!! mum would get a fit. and they went for a honeymoon and when aunty mabel came back, she sat for her final papers. how cool is that? oh the wonderful thing about romance. when its the one that God has chosen for you.
haha. getting all romancy now. grins.
dream dream dream.
ive given my heart to jesus.
oh lord keep it keep it keep it.
i want everything to be surrendered wholly to you.
and let me captured by your beauty.
and oh lord,
you see everything i do, say and think.
and you still love me!
it's unbelievable.


when i see the beauty
of a sunset's glory
amazing artistry across the evening sky
when i feel the nystery
of a distant galaxy
it awes and humbles me
to be loved
by a God so high
what can i do
but thank you?
what can i do but give my life to you
hallelujah hallelujah
what can i do
but praise you
everyday make everything i do
a Hallelujah
a Hallelujah
Hallulujah


let the world see Jesus Christ in me
the love; sweet wonderful love of Christ in me.
please

8:32 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

it's like im going back to my pld life of internet-free hassle days.
is it a good thing or a bad thing?
i hate relying on technology.
but i don't like not being able to do my research or print whatever i want or blah blah blah.
check my mail!
so now im back to coming early on sunday mornings to check my email using dad's ancient computor, which is slow but still very usable.
thank God for that! im not complaining.
least they haven chased me out yet(:



I am God.
Be still and know that I am God.
precisely what God told me yest.
all your cares, your concerns, your future, don't worry. i will provide.
i wonder how irritated He is with me for the zillion tmes i get worried or upset or emo ovr all these trivial things.
and still You love me so.
oh the wonderful love of Jesus.
perfect love casts out fear.
i will cling on to that and find myself in you.


i was just jogging the other day and i was thinkin and thinkin and thinkin.
what if this and what is that?
that i would be a single mum and i would nv marry or something.
HAHA.
its like all so random but yes.
im human aftr all.
its like the future is so distant but yet so near. you nv know whats gonna happen or what u might do in the future..and that's where God comes into place..
knowing that before i was even born and all my days are just planned out alr is much more comforting.
what's more, it was someone who loved me so much and died for me who wrote my life out with his blood so that all my sins would be blotted out.
its like using an invisible pen for sins and writing a story.
but this invisible ink is in blood.
Jesus' blood.


how great the Father's love for us.


and how retarded can my cell get?
teasing me bout every single guy that i come into contact with? oh my goodness.



im still trying. doin my best to forget. giving my heart to Jesus. to surrender all. to not think and dream. or wander far off. Lord Jesus, take my life, take all of me.


i miss my church friends.
i miss xin, ting, esther, stef, char, claud, huey, jonk, robyn, jon and loads more. its like i see them every sat but there's just no time to talk or to find out more about their lives. and u see one another and go hie! a hug, a smile, a "how are you?", a few laughs, and move on. i miss those times when we would just really spend time, sit and have a good chat. those precious moments.
people nowadays are just so busy, time really is no one's friend.
haha so cliche.
but it just makes u wonder sometimes whether u have changed and become a better person and friend or just a mere acquaintance. worse still, a stranger.
i miss charlene. i miss ginny. i miss sirong. i miss abi. i miss kenneth.
i miss all the toilet shots we had, the mad things we did at the bustop, the screamings we often had that caused us to laugh til our sides ached, the sequels we had in class, the breadfights we had, the bickerings we had til we finally started screaming and no one would emerge winner becos we would just simply forget it or end up in spastique. all these memories are so fond and dear, but would they evr be relived again? or mayb sometimes they are just pushed into the back of your mind and simply collect dust.
i really miss it.



God has been so good to me. he provided enough money for me to give for BEP. he gave me a job tmr to work to pay all i owe him. and i know he will provide more. he protected MIndy's letter and it travelled all the wya to me form china! haha im so happy ive received her letter.im gonna get a china card to call her n baojing friends when i have enough cash.
and my diet's nv gonna work. sadly. ok im just goin to eat healthily and jog at least 3 times a wk. this wk n the wk before only twice. but ive flu ok. hur. ya aftr op im gonna start serious on my studies. im only a yr one but so. i did really badly for this whole yr and im NEED to make up for that.
and oh dear gor, he's so busy with projects and exams.
and di is busy with his rgs stuff n leadership in school.
ill just pray.
EVERYONE'S SO BUSY.

all you are is all i want,
always.
bird: i wanto mt my aunty!
cai: i wanto study with you!
liting: i wanto go vivo!
beansprout: i wanto run 8k!

8:27 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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